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Ya know, when people say they don't understand why Karma turns on them, or why people treat them like crap, I usually feel bad for those people, and I will be nice to them to prove not everyone is a prick; then once you get to know them, what they get is the least they deserve...

Damn me for trying to give people the benefit of the doubt and not clumping them into the whole 'people suck' category... Will I ever learn my lesson; probably not... I am beyond stupid.... *sigh*

Nothing's really been going on and for that I am greatly relieved. Just felt like writing something, since I haven't written in this section for awhile...

I am watching my FAVORITE movie again... Phantom of the Opera (2004). I know there are a ton and a half mistakes, and bloopers but I love it none the less.... The gothic beauty and sadness and theme (as well as the feeling of loneliness and isolation) of this movie moves me so deeply I still cry at the end...

I will probably watch Twilight after this just because this is my usual pattern on a Saturday night (The book I am currently reading has The Phantom of the Opera as well as Vampires in it, so I am a very happy chica!). Luckily I get to sleep in tomorrow. I probably should mow the lawn, but it is going to rain again (which is fine, cause I keep procrastinating anyway)... I swear one day when you are looking at an atlas you will notice ill-annoy sliding off of it because it got flooded out...

I don't know about anyone else, but it seems 98% of the people I am having 'issues' with are PM's and I don't know why, but thats just my observation (don't get me wrong, a good amount are really nice too)... Do they feel they have to right to be obnoxious, egotistical, PITA's who think they are so special?

Perhaps... but enough for now... must continue watching the movie :)

(I actually wrote this back in March, but I am going to be changing one of the sections of my journal, so I will put this one here)





When did I stop caring?

When did it all start to hurt?

Will this pain ever go away?

Or only when I'm six feet under dirt...



Why did I stop caring?

I can't remember the reason.

Will I ever heal this wound?

My soul forever in mourning season.



How did I stop caring?

I look to all my past sins.

Did one day I just let 'life' go?

Only held together by glue and pins?



Who made me stop caring?

Was it one person or many?

I wish I had something to live for.

This sadness came through epiphany.



Will you make me start caring?

Give me hope in my time of need?

Be my spark to light my path;

Be the one to let my happiness be freed.



© Lissateka 3/20/09

My friend, yesterday, told me to watch this one version of Phantom of The Opera... It was a made for TV one back in 1990... It started off kind of sucky, and as my favorite movie of all time is the 2004 Phantom of the Opera (yes yes I know, too many bloopers to name), I was a bit disappointed in this one at first... man by the middle of it (well about 10/21 (YouTube has it and there are 21 sections of the movie)), I was kinda getting into it... (Phantom of the Opera 1990 Kopit version, by the way) by 16/21 I was really getting into it, and at the end I cried like a bitty baby... DAMN YOU LYSA!!!! lol.. This ended differently then I assumed... Will there ever be a PotO where justice will be rendered and the Phantom (Erik), will get the girl... I will admit though Raoul (Viscount de Chagny) was a hotty in this one... but the phantom just wants to be loved... ARGH, damn superficial heathens who made these movies lol... I have to buy the original book.. Wonder if it is still out there.. Now I shall go to Amazon.com and look.. :)



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